A worthless Sacrifice

I try my best, I know I have

I will still try my best until I get there

I do not know what I am expected to do

Because you want me to do something contrary

I know I am not perfect, I just aim towards perfection

I need to be corrected for I am only human

 

I can't get better if I am not corrected

I need someone to help me move forward

I don't want to be stagnant, I need change

That I what life is all about,

But I can't always figure out my mistakes

But if you do please let me know

For I promise to me a better person

 

I have sacrificed all I can

I do all these because I met you

I would never take certain steps

But I did because I met you

I have sacrificed a lot, yes I have

I do things I will never do for myself

Do you known that? I think and do things

Because I try to make you happy

You would never understand.

 

I know one thing is that I have never being honest with you

To tell you what I really feel,

And what my mind goes through.

Do you know how much I try?

I have sacrificed a lot for you

But I can see all that going into the drain.

 

 

The Perfect Man the Crawling Child

He is the master, he is perfect

He is never wrong, he is perfect

He can never admit his mistakes

You are wrong because he is perfect

He sees, knows and understands what you do,

Is that possible? He is perfect.

 

He is as mighty as the mountain that has an endless peak

You can never understand, because he is perfect.

Can I be perfect? But head towards perfection.

Prudently, with knowledge might help, that I know.

I feel I can still head towards perfection

But he can't take it I must be perfect.

 

I am blind, I need a leader

I am a baby, I need to learn how to walk and talk

I need to know my left from my right

I need to learn how to tell a truth from a lie

But I can't do it on my own that is why I have a friend.

 

Someone who will correct me

Someone who leads me through life

Someone who tells me when I go wrong

And helps me improve

I can't improve on my own because I am not perfect

I feel I have tried to learn but I have done nothing

But say "nonsense" yes that is what I say to him

He is perfect. How will I help my present situation?

That question is yet to be answered.

It's getting clear!!!!

I am pissed but not so pissed u know what I have nothing to say I am out of words. It’s like I should be swallowed up by the earth. I can get myself out of this but it just seems too difficult, but I know I will do that someday. I just need to, I have butterflies in my stomach, they are flapping everywhere and it’s not because I am nervous it because I am so angry I can seem so do anything about it.

It is killing me. Something must be done. I can’t be humiliated; I am not even respected by people I should gain respect from one person I know that would do all it takes to make me happy. I have to let it out. I think I am going crazy. I taut I loved but I don’t think I do. He says he loves but I don’t think he does. Well, he never says love, he says “ok”, even when I say it, it’s as if I am tucking to an inanimate object as if I am not even tucking to a human. And once in a purple sun he says it n I don’t seem to feel it.

I hear n I pretend nothing is happening, people say things, people who know and people who have no idea or have a clue who he is say “what are u doing with him?” once I heard “divorce him!” ...lol not like I am married to him or anything. I really not know what to do not like he pays any attention if I am not happy about what I hear or even see. It just feels rather awkward. No girl in her right sense will ever go thru dis. Bu it don’t know why I don’t regret?

If you love you will respect.

If you care you will love.

They see me in u

But they never see u in me.

I don’t know what to think.

I don’t know what to believe

I think I am going crazy

I know I am crazy

I thought love conquers all

I know love conquers all

But I do not see it in this Love

Neither do I feel it.

What do u think of me?

What do u believe about me?

Am I one of them?

Do u think I am one of them?

Am I in the wrong page?

Can u bring me back?

Or can I bring u back?

What is happening?

It like I am going crazy

Or I have turned crazy

Will I have feelings if I were crazy?

Will I pray if I were crazy?

Have I being dreaming?

Please if I have I would rather not be awaken in other to see how this is all going to end.

We are all afraid of what the end might hold because when you get to the end of what use the hope may be. I wonder a times about this. That is why we can never know the end and if we do we never know when it would end.