It's getting clear!!!!

I am pissed but not so pissed u know what I have nothing to say I am out of words. It’s like I should be swallowed up by the earth. I can get myself out of this but it just seems too difficult, but I know I will do that someday. I just need to, I have butterflies in my stomach, they are flapping everywhere and it’s not because I am nervous it because I am so angry I can seem so do anything about it.

It is killing me. Something must be done. I can’t be humiliated; I am not even respected by people I should gain respect from one person I know that would do all it takes to make me happy. I have to let it out. I think I am going crazy. I taut I loved but I don’t think I do. He says he loves but I don’t think he does. Well, he never says love, he says “ok”, even when I say it, it’s as if I am tucking to an inanimate object as if I am not even tucking to a human. And once in a purple sun he says it n I don’t seem to feel it.

I hear n I pretend nothing is happening, people say things, people who know and people who have no idea or have a clue who he is say “what are u doing with him?” once I heard “divorce him!” ...lol not like I am married to him or anything. I really not know what to do not like he pays any attention if I am not happy about what I hear or even see. It just feels rather awkward. No girl in her right sense will ever go thru dis. Bu it don’t know why I don’t regret?

If you love you will respect.

If you care you will love.

They see me in u

But they never see u in me.

I don’t know what to think.

I don’t know what to believe

I think I am going crazy

I know I am crazy

I thought love conquers all

I know love conquers all

But I do not see it in this Love

Neither do I feel it.

What do u think of me?

What do u believe about me?

Am I one of them?

Do u think I am one of them?

Am I in the wrong page?

Can u bring me back?

Or can I bring u back?

What is happening?

It like I am going crazy

Or I have turned crazy

Will I have feelings if I were crazy?

Will I pray if I were crazy?

Have I being dreaming?

Please if I have I would rather not be awaken in other to see how this is all going to end.

We are all afraid of what the end might hold because when you get to the end of what use the hope may be. I wonder a times about this. That is why we can never know the end and if we do we never know when it would end.